Look for the Signs

Well I hope it turns out I post it. It’s been a long time i have not posted in this blog. Well it does not mean that i have stopped writing or blogging, it’s just the blogs are so personal to share. I was having a walk along the roadways and its funny i was talking to myself. Many people do that and do not accept it. I know. Does not matter, I love talking to myself aloud. I am not ashamed of it. I am not crazy. It’s normal to talk to yourself. I was wondering how everyone is different from each other. In today’s world where people like to be fake so that they can impress each other and make others love them, I do the opposite. I don’t understand why I expose the vulnerability that does not even exist in in me. May be to get the true fact or its just happens I have no idea. In a world where people impress others, i make people hate me. It’s knowingly or unknowingly, idk, but  I repel people.

Whenever I have a war in my head, I travel. Get away from place, but it’s not the place that is haunting, it’s the people that make life miserable. I have seen saints in hell and demons in heaven. I stopped running. I dealt with it with utter vulnerability. That made my dear ones go away and assholes lining up for me. I have been lucky to got friends those understand my idiosyncrasies.

I got the music in me that can make me high. I might be crazy but I am not owned. I could make my rules and boundaries without anybody defining it. You judge me. That’s ok. People do that. I have been scared my whole life that I might not get the answers to the questions that has been ringing in my head. I realised, it has to be snoozed. You cannot find answers all the time, sometimes it’s just in front of you but if it’s not meant for you, you are blind to it. That’s ok. Give yourself some slack. You don’t have to understand the whole universe. It is meant to be enigmatic. There is no fun if you get all the answers. I stopped looking for answers. Instead I started looking for the signs that lead to my answers.

Okay, now hit post.