Menstruation- OMG what did you just say?

Yesterday I was having a small talk with one of my roommates. Girls gossip you know! She is the one who has recently got married and obviously dying to stay with her husband. Her husband lives in Chennai and she is stuck in Mumbai for the job. And I appreciate the fact that she is working after marriage. It’s not that common in Indian society to continue your job after marriage when your husband is at different part of the country. Here the girl has to adjust. Hence forth, she tried her level best to make herself transfer to Chennai which she succeeded eventually. So now the whole anxiety thing prevails as to when the date of transfer will come and she would be with her husband.

Bitter PAST

A friend of mine suddenly asked me that why do I write such post and blogs? Do you know it gives a negative impact, he said. Really? I never thought so. You most of the times rant about how you were wronged or you complain to the society. So? I wasn’t scared of what people might think of me. And I have full right to rant or complain or blabber or simply write. You don't like don't read. Yes I am rude. But rudeness come with boldness.

11 things that made me feel Better!

It feels good when some of the unexpected things happen; like

1. A person you just met once remembers your name when you thought he might have forgotten.
2. When you want the person you like or have crush on, to wish you on your bday but you know he would never remember and surprisingly he wishes you first.
3. When after a fight with your boy friend you get an ice cream cone or chocolate bar even if you aren’t talking to each other.
4. A surprise visit of your dad living miles away from you.
5. Your crush texts you when he is drunk saying you are the one he wants to talk to.
6. Your roommate cooks a meal for you when she knows you don’t eat the dish prepared in the hostel kitchen.
7. You get a cute little gift from someone who went for vacation.
8. A hug from your sister when you cry like a baby.
9. A friend who makes you feel worthy when you feel like a loser.
10. A smile, genuine smile from a person in the street.
11. Someone out of blue unknowingly helped you out in taking a decision.

Ps- you can always add more.

Ache inside my HEART

I had to meet you, tell you how amazing you are

I would come up to you, crossing the borders        

See you smile after we are apart

Somebody should have warned me

About the ache, that’s inside my heart.

Last wave I needed, from you

When you were leaving the country

And me alone, with the stars

That we used to gaze on the roof

Cuddling in each other’s arms.

I know it’s difficult, I’ve to pull up 

Myself from this never healing wound.

I wanna go back to the start!

But I wish good luck, fly up so high

No one could touch and cause harm.

It’s sad that we ended up like this

Situations tore us apart.

Somebody should have warned me

About the ache, that’s inside my heart.

I had no idea this would be so hard!

Hormones, Stupid Hormones

These hormones play a crucial part  in ones well being. These are not in control of oneself. You never know how they might surprise/angry/sad/excite you.

I fear the hormones. You would have no idea how they can  play you. Sometimes you do not want to show your desire for a person you like or get attracted to or have a crush on, but you cant escape from the clutches of hormones. You find it impossible to over power it. The ones responsible to make you sad or the endorphins that make you feel good, sometimes you can't control them and you are bound to show their symptons.

How much you try, if they act strong; a tear will roll down your cheeks doesn’t matter how much you control or a smile would stretch to both sides of ear no matter you try to hide the laugh inside. And most importantly the sexual desire. For a boy its really awkward when he gets a boner by just thinking about the one he is sexually attracted to in a place-not suppose to, like any public place or church(#confession of a teenager)You might think- in church! whoa, that's sick. I know it is weird but you can't help it when you are so much deeply in sexual love (lust is a derogatory term so I would not use that) with someone. Same happens for a girl. They take time but once a girl is aroused, it's like her body is over flowing with energies and she needs to invest it in something to attain equilibrium.

The oxytocins, prolactins, endorphins, estrogens, dopamines and many more to deal with; meh! stupid hormones, their names even doesn't make sense. I am not a bio student so I am not good at names or their functions nor I believe in to google about it and post in my blog. Yeah, one thing I am sure of is at the end of the day it's not in your hands. Just pray they(hormones) don't make you that predictable.